Prologue: The Letter
The sun bled orange through the window, catching dust motes in its final rays. Jennifer placed the letter on the cool cement ledge, its creases a fragile map of the years it had spent in hiding. She traced the loops of her father’s script, the ink faded to the color of a day-old bruise. The words were not just ink; they were bone and muscle, a spine for her own wavering resolve.
The clatter of a steel tumbler on the kitchen floor broke the quiet. Her mother, Asha, stood in the doorway, wiping her hands on a thin cotton towel. Her knuckles were swollen from years of work, her face a geography of worry etched around a deep well of kindness. Her eyes fell on the yellowed paper, and a stillness came over her.
“You found it.” It wasn't a question.
Jennifer folded the letter, the paper crackling in protest, and slid it into the pocket of her worn jeans. It felt warm against her leg.
“I’m going to the post office tomorrow.”
Asha began to methodically arrange the chipped ceramic cups on a shelf, her back to Jennifer. The small, precise movements were a wall against the chaos threatening to enter the room. “For what? We have enough rice for the week.”
“To mail the application.”
The cups stopped their rhythmic clinking. One cup sat askew, its handle pointing accusingly toward the door. The air thickened. A crow cawed from the banyan tree outside, a harsh, grating sound that scraped the evening quiet.
“The one for the college here? Professor Anjali said she would write you a fine recommendation.”
“No.” Jennifer’s throat felt tight, a knot of jute rope. She swallowed. “The one for the school in Chicago.”
Asha turned, her face unreadable. She walked past Jennifer to the window and straightened a wilting marigold in its clay pot, her fingers pinching a brown leaf from its stem. The scent of kerosene from the lit lamp in the hall drifted between them.
“Chicago is on the other side of the world.”
“I know.”
“They don’t speak our language. They don’t eat our food. You will be alone.”
“I’ll learn.” The words were small but solid. They took up space in the room.
Asha finally looked at her, her dark eyes searching Jennifer’s face for the little girl she had raised, the one who was afraid of the dark and the stray dogs in the lane. She found someone else instead. “We don’t have that kind of money, Jen. Your father… the money he left is for your future. For a home.”
“This is my future.” Jennifer’s hand went to her pocket, her fingers closing around the sharp edges of the folded letter. She could feel the imprint of the words against her skin. Live your dream without fear.
“Your dream is to leave your mother? To leave everything you know for a place you have only seen in magazines?” Asha’s voice was low, stripped of its usual warmth. It was the voice she used when the monsoons flooded the road, a voice that acknowledged disaster without giving in to it.
“My dream is to study architecture. The way he wanted to.”
A nerve jumped in Asha’s jaw. “Do not put your foolish ideas into his mouth. He wanted you to be safe. He wanted you to be happy and settled. Here.” She swept a hand around the small, cramped room, at the peeling paint and the faded photographs on the wall. It was an accusation. An anchor.
“He wanted me to not be afraid.”
The argument fell away, leaving a silence that was heavier than shouts. Asha looked from her daughter’s defiant chin to the window, to the sky that was now a deep, starless purple. She saw the ghost of her husband in the set of Jennifer’s shoulders, in the stubborn light in her eyes. It was a look she had seen countless times, across this very room, a look that preceded some grand, impossible plan. A plan to build a new wing on the school, to start a lending library, to live a life bigger than the one he was given. A look that had, in the end, put him behind the wheel of a bus on a rain-slicked mountain road.
“You are just like him,” she whispered. The statement hung between them, both a blessing and a curse.
Jennifer’s hand tightened on the letter in her pocket. She didn’t need to look at it. The words were already burned into her. They were the last thing he had given her, and the first thing she would use.